Why People are the Way They Are
Anthony and I had this discussion yesterday regarding why I am always so surprised when people are assholes and we tried to figure out the reasons behind how and why I get so deeply hurt by other people's actions - or lack thereof.
I don't think we ever really figured it out but we did discuss the fact that I just don't get people that live solely for themselves and with no desire to make either the world at large or even just their little corner of the universe a better place to be. Anthony said that's how most people live and honestly, that's just foreign to me. Not that I'm some kind of saint or anything...I like being selfish just as much as the next person. But not at the expense of other people. I don't get that.
What drives people to be selfish and mean? What inspires people to live life with no thought, no regard, to the feelings of those around them? Where does that lack of respect come from?
David Gray has a song called "Sail Away" and one verse of his song says:
I’ve been talking drunken gibberish
Falling in and out of bars
Trying to find some explanation here
For the way some people are
How did it ever come so far
I think that pretty much sums it up. It speaks to the fact that we try and try to fill our lives with things that are really nothing more than empty reflections of that which we truly desire and yet we don't chase down and catch our deepest desires mostly, I think, because we're scared. We're so conditioned to be hurt and disappointed that the thought that something could actually go right and/or the way we intended it to is foreign to us.
I wish there was an explanation for the way some people are. I wish I could understand those phone calls last night and the resulting emails today. I wish I could understand why they desire me only when they think they can't have me. That's such total bullshit. I don't understand why we can't all just be honest about the way we feel and act upon it with no consequences. Why does everything have to be constantly thought about and talked to death? I want that base, visceral reaction that only occurs occassionally. I want life.
Godamnit, I'm gonna go get me some.
2 comments:
Everyone is selfish. Thats a basic survival instinct. Smart people realize that you get what you give, and immediately start giving as much as possible, in whatever way suits them. The golden rule is essential. Instant Karma is a very very real thing.
As far as life - it's not something you "get." It's something you have. And you have more of it than most people already. You're full of it. You just haven't been paying attention. Or maybe you've just been too distracted to notice.
I could see how I've been too busy to notice. And I can TOTALLY see how I could be too distracted. Maybe things will settle down now somewhat. I don't know why they would but they have to at some point, right?
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