I am really alone. Everyone that I had is at this very moment...gone. And I am alone. The world is a big, scary place and I am looking at it and facing it alone. I had wonderful people...but the one I wanted the most has now rejected me. For real. Not just in the "let's see what happens" kind of way but in the "you're worth it, just not worth it to me" kind of way. The pain at not being found worthy by the one I love is greater than any pain I have ever experienced. To know that I am not "good enough" is so hard to accept. I am apparently a loser that is not even worthy of the love of a supreme geek. "It's all fun and games 'til somebody loses a super-power."